it’s been awhile since i’ve posted anything…been really busy…but today, i’m free as a bird and i’d like to express something…people who have known me my whole life, despite of how i look and how i dress, know that i have a good heart. they never try to change me. they let me be me. is it wrong that i don’t like clothes and make-up and shoes and all those stuff?? is it wrong for me to feel comfortable in what i wear?? is it wrong for me to spend most of my money on books and vcds and pirated dvds?? is it wrong that i’m most comfortable in wearing jeans and khakis than wearing slacks and skirts?? is it wrong that i’m most comfortable in wearing t-shirts than blouses??? is it wrong that i don’t like sitting in front of my mirror for hours on end trying to hide my face’s imperfections?? is it wrong that i rather wear sneakers and sandals with comfortable soles rather than heals??? is it wrong for me to stuff my pants’ pockets with my stuffs rather than carrying a handbag???is it wrong for me to not like pink???…do ALL of THAT matter??? isn’t me being me good enough for anybody??? i’ve guys tell me i should try wearing blouses and skirts and make-up…something nice…why???? to impress guys??? is that why everyone is obsessed with?? i don’t dress to impress anybody….clothing is just a necessity….why can’t what’s inside someone’s heart…their personality…be ENOUGH?!?!?!?!?! why??? i’m sick of thinking how shallow people are….having people accept you for who you are is like pulling teeth!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

i’m not saying i won’t change…i will but at my own pace and with my own way…you can push me all you want…criticize me for all i care….you can’t break me….i hold firm on what i stand….i am what i am….fucking deal with it…..